The last few days have been a bit of a trial for me. I appear to have contracted some generic flu/cold bug of some sort that started as a sinus issue with increases in pain and fatigue. Now it has moved to my upper respiratory tract giving me a gravelly voice and a phlegmy cough. The problem with this is that so many of the symptoms are actually just an increase of those that already contribute to my average day.
There have been times when I have used the analogy of how one feels when one has the flu to describe the nature of the constant low level pain and fatigue that are just part of the baseline for me. When an ordinary (read "healthy") person comes down with a bug they feel sore and tired. They like to rest more and lie down more but they can force themselves to do a strenuous activity if they really must. Welcome to my normal.
So here I am, happier than I have ever been in my life, enjoying paradise with fabulous food, wonderful company, and virtually no stress and feeling really quite crappy. Yesterday was the worst day for the flu'ish feeling. Today just feels like a quite unpleasant flare with the added pleasure of a very sore throat.
There are a lot of bugs in the tropics, ones with multiple legs, not just bacteria and viruses! I know that seems rather obvious but when you have weird skin sensations where you feel like you are being bitten or stung for no good reason, or when you feel things walking on your skin that really aren't there, the added factor of the presence of "actual" bugs makes for a weird mindset. I'm slapping myself too often, getting sudden stabbing pains in a tiny spot and then searching for something that caused it. People could be forgiven for thinking my condition was psychological instead of physiological or neurological (the verdict is still out on that one re Fibromyalgia though the current theory is blaming the central nervous system) when they see me scrounging around looking for imaginary ants, spiders and beetles.
Sooooo... I just took some pain killers and I'm getting my poop in a group for another social engagement this evening. I have been out more since I arrived here last Tuesday than I was in four months in Sydney! It seems that a highly social two thousand can outdo an insular five million hands down. Of course TLOML is very social and involved in all kinds of things and in Sydney I was verging on reclusive. The good thing is that most things are very close to home here. TLOML and I haven't really got the "I need to go home now" signal down yet. I don't like a big fuss and would like to be able to just slip quietly away if I'm getting too tired or sore to party on. We are working on it. Certainly this evening I might come home quite early (unless a couple of glasses of wine does what pain killers can't do) and I have no problem with TLOML staying on especially as we will only be a couple of blocks from home!
I have had a remarkably good run. I managed to avoid colds and flu for well over a year including time spent on two different continents! So I'm going to try and suck it up and have a good evening in spite of having a nasty dose of crud!